So, this is a completely self serving post, with no modesty whatsoever... I won't say forgive me cuz that ain't how I roll. I have reached the milestone of 70 years old. Who woulda thunk it? I'm very blessed to have made it this far (actually we're all blessed, we just choose not to see it sometimes). The way I abused my body, my parents and siblings, my various wives and kids and my friends though my addictions was appalling. I have done what I could to make amends for that, but the hardest part was forgiving myself... that only goes away layer by layer, like peeling an onion. Wasting your life by hating on yourself is no way to live. It has taken me many years to realize this. In my view, things happen to you when you're ready for it to happen, you can't force it. When your mind is ready to accept, it will do so. Those occurrences are what I deem miracles.... you don't have to walk on water or raise the dead for it to be a miracle. When you are ready you will give yourself permission to go beyond what is holding you back, you've done it, you've performed a miracle. Realize there's gotta be a better way. Let go of your fear. Don't wait until you are 70 years old. Perform a miracle today! It's yours for the asking. I'm asking to let go of my Trump hate... Happy birthday to me!! And thanks to all of you for what you contribute to the board! btw, I think a form of self-flagellation is being a Cardinal fan.... that's one form of suffering I haven't been able to overcome for 55 years or so...ha!